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Testimony Blog
September 6, 2008
Dear Reverend Eric,
Sometimes when you choose to participate in a workshop, you really don’t know what you are getting yourself into. Obviously, I didn’t. And it’s taken a minute to access what actually happened for me in the Healing Workshop 8 and what continues to happen.
I came out of the graduation ceremony, put the key into the ignition of my car, and nothing happened. But something was happening. Something new: I did not react. “God poured out his spirit in me; and spirit made known God’s word in me.” Try again, was the word. And I responded. This time, the car started. The electrical system had been affected, though, and I could not access the sound system.
Once again, I did not react to this circumstance. As I drove in silence, it became clear God’s plan for my journey back to Baltimore: reflection. Looking back on my day, it came to me that my Sunday had not started in the usual way: obsessing about the past actions of an individual who had been significant in my life, the daily picking at my woundedness.
I began my day speaking my stance, healing affirmation, and affirming Scripture verse. Through the repetition of those powerful words, the significance of why I chose them (or they chose me) was revealed to me and excitement, gratitude, and awe filled my morning. As I made my way home, I discovered that during the course of the workshop, I had accomplished something that I had been struggling with for months: I released the circumstances of that relationship. I forgave the person. I forgave myself. Don’t know where or when in the workshop these things happened, but they did!
I further realized, Reverend Eric, that healing is not an intellectual process for me. In order for healing to take place, I don’t have to have answers to why things happen, what I should be learning. I just have to choose it. Through this workshop, I physically took steps to heal. And, Reverend E, you cannot imagine the level of freedom I experienced as I drove discovering I had finally flown the coop of that pain-filled, self-inflicted prison!
This past weekend, I was scheduled to facilitate a workshop for a group of teens, sharing ways to tap in to creativity to identify, express, and accept what is happening mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually in one’s life. Prior to the healing workshop, I agonized about how to approach this workshop. I went to the library and plowed through books, seeking inspiration. I had plenty of ideas, but they were not formulating into a cohesive workshop.
But on the Monday evening following Healing Workshop 8, something shifted. I sat down to open yet another book, but God poured out His spirit in me: Draw from within. And as I put the books aside, ideas just flowed. Resources from my own experiences, exercises that I had forgotten about just popped into my head. I was lead to a place where the materials I needed to purchase were not only on sale but I was given a further discount as a workshop facilitator (new identity?). And, by Wednesday, the workshop was built and the materials were purchased, gathered, and packed. There was no lingering anxiety about presenting only excitement to share what I need to be practicing daily. It hit me: Healing Workshop 8 had jump-started me. I not only had cleared enough, healed enough to be present to hear God’s guidance without resistance, I accepted that God pours out his spirit in me. And after facilitating, that group of youth asked, “When can we do this again?”
Reverend Eric, the power of thought, the power of the spoken words – these are not new concepts for me. I’ve studied them, intellectualized about them. Healing Workshop 8 gave me actions to bring these concepts to life in my life. Not only did I release circumstances, I healed my perception of who I am. I no longer see myself as a broken entity. I can speak my stance and allow God to pour out his spirit in me. Spirit reminds me of God’s word in me: Love. And the love of God energizes me to dance, to drop what was yesterday, and fill the empty moment, which is now!
I could continue with other shifts in my life, but this letter would never reach completion. Thank you, Reverend Eric, for taking your stance. In order to create this amazing workshop you would have to have done so. I realize that healing is an ongoing process, forgiving is an ongoing process. The Healing Workshop will be seeing me again and again.
Peace and Blessings,
Claire Dorsey
September 10, 2008
Dear I AM:
Thank you so much for your courage over this past weekend to really go in and take a good look at yourself. Thank you for all that you cleared, forgave, and healed. What you have released, forgiven, and healed offers nourishment to the planet and healing to all. By forgiving and healing yourself, you have cleared space to see the reflection of who you really are. And that reflection will be a beacon for others who seek to change, who seek peace in their lives, who seek a clearer connection to the Creator. The more you have cleared, the more space there is for LOVE to flow and for further healing. With the clarity of your reflection, you will also be able to see GOD more clearly in others. Thank you for choosing to be a way-shower.
As you move away from this weekend, please take time for yourself and with yourself. I found that it was in the stillness that further insights were revealed and what really cleared for me had the space to come into my awareness. Make time to rest and to nurture you, beautiful and awesome being. You have spent intensive amounts of time opening, being vulnerable. Refortify yourself: body, mind and spirit as your remembrance of who you chose to be before you came here enters your awareness. Be patient with yourself as you integrate all that you discover and develop new ways to balance the “new” you, when you return to what may have been challenging circumstances. Make use of your stand, your spiritual verse and any other empowering words that you received over the weekend. Please know you will continue to be in my prayers and I support your healing. If you need a listening ear, please don’t hesitate to make contact with your fellow classmates, your support system, and me, too!
Congratulations and thank you for the work that you have done. The world has shifted closer to wholeness because of you. Be well and BE YOU: whole, perfect and complete!
Love,
Claire Dorsey
Healing Workshop8